Tuesday, 2 December 2014

Perseverance is Key
December 02, 2014

Perseverance is Key

It's been a tough few months for me, I'm not going to lie. Depression has been hitting non-stop since univeristy has started and it's been a massive challenge to juggle everything I got going on at the moment. I keep thinking to myself what's the point in anything and that nothing has any purpose, ect. bla bla bla but I know it's just a deluded depressed version of myself telling me that. It requires a lot of my willpower to complete the most basics of tasks (including blogposts as you may have noticed!). I've been trying really hard to maintain my composure and not fall behind with the fast-paced life that we currently live in. There's no time like the present to revive yourself and become reborn, so tonight I'm going to give it my best shot (again) to defeat my inner demons.

Firstly I need to fill you in about what you've missed whilst I've been hibernating. I study Aerospace Engineering at the Univeristy of Liverpool, in my second year, and shit's been getting tough. I mean like really tough. My meds haven't done anything for me and attendance has been quite low this semester, and I have to remind myself that's ok. It's ok because if I could go in everyday I would, and I can't wallow for trying to give everyday my best shot. Then there's also loads of exciting things I've done that I can only say good things about. I saw the fireworks for Guy Fawke's night which was incredible and went to Edinburgh (nice pic above) with my girlfriend (she has a blog to, check it out) during the weekend and are going down to London for her birthday to eat in the highest resturaunt in the UK (I'll make sure to include some pictures). I also bought a new macbook retina with money I saved from working over the summer which makes me feel so sophisticated haha.

My girlfriend and I have been together for a while now and I just want to express my gratitude to her. Whenever I'm having a bad day she'll tell me not to hide it and that we're a team and we need to bounce off of each other. We can both be a bit temperamental but she's convinced me that together we can keep that balance like Yin and Yang, we both black and white too as you may tell from the picture ;). When I was having a particularly bad day she made us buy whiteboards to write on every morning to put stuff to look forward to on it, I'm really lucky to have someone that I can lean upon when I need that extra boost.

Lastly I want to list five positive things in my current life. I've been stuck in a bit of a rut so thinking positively of myself feels like a chore but sometimes you have to remind yourself. I urge anyone having a bad day to try it :)

1. I have a warm house and money to afford food and luxuries.
2. Univeristy is hard and I'm still maintaing good coursework grades regardless.
3. I'm going to plan travelling for summer with my girlfriend soon.
4. Christmas break is around the corner!
5. Have a lovely understanding girlfriend by my side regardless of my situation.

Planning to do another blogpost in the next few days. Hope to see you there!



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